Do You Even Know?

She got to see you,
to visit you,
to hug you.
She got to tell you
that she loves you.
Even though
she was only
a little girl
when you left.
Well do you know that
I love you?
Do you know that
I forgive you?
Even though they don't.
Do you know that
I miss you?
Do you know that
I cry for you?
That I feel
the same pain
day after day
wondering why
you left me behind?

Is that why
you don't call?
Because you don't know?
Because you think
that I'm like
the rest of them?
Is that why
you've seemed
to have forgotten
that you were
my best friend?
That you are
my big brother?
Because you think
I don't love you?
Because you think
I haven't forgiven you?

Or is it because
you've forgotten me?
I haven't forgot you.
I've tried.
I can't forget you.
Do you know that
I want you in my life?
Do you even care?
Do you even want me?
Do you even love me anymore!?!
I don't understand
how anyone can just
turn their back
on their life
like that.
I don't understand
how you could just
leave me
like that.
I want to understand
why you don't seem
to love me
anymore.

My pain will never
go away until I know.
Do you even
love me anymore?
Do you even
care anymore?
Do you even
want to know me?
Do you even
remember me?
Do you even
care about me?
Do you even
know that
I still love you?